It's one of those 34 degree days. It's so hot it's stifling.

I've finished exams, gone to church seminar, gone to camp and come back and now I am rotting in the heat smelling my leftover breakfast of tuna and oats. It's quite yum actually. Going out for dinner later.

It's been a mixed up week. It's slowly sinking in that I am on holiday. Trying to use this time to sort my thoughts out, sort myself out and run the errands that I need to run. I finally called ING today. Just need to mail the thingy out tomorrow.

Time really flies. Yvonne is leaving this Sunday night. For good. I'm still trying to let that fact sink in that on Monday, there will only be 3 of us left. I guess it will take some getting used to that she's not on some holiday but she's really not coming back. Her stuff's all packed and being boxed, even though a lot of it is lying around the house. Yeah well.

The people I started year 1 with who are doing other courses are graduating, most going back. Those whom I met when I did my first orientation are also going back.. cos they do twinning from Monash Malaysia. With Keith graduating as well, practically everyone I knew since year 1 has finished.

God has a perfect plan for each of us. We may not see it at times, neither may we understand it most of the times. Many times we gripe at God, be in strife with people of God just because the magnitude of things are too large for our own comprehension. We like to mess around with God's plans by deciding to do things our own way. Are we really willing to trust God and release everything to Him? Are we willing to let Him come and empower us and guide us to that true victory He won for us on the cross?

Honestly, I struggle. I struggle a lot. When the rubber hits the road, you really learn about things. It's not just about smiling and having fun it's about really pressing on with God, crying out to Him and understanding His purposes and deciding to stick to them no matter how hard they may be. I've learnt one thing this year. The righteousness of God is definitely not the righteousness of the world.

God gives each of us 1 life and 1 life to live. However we use it is up to us. I just want to use it well. To use it for my God and my God alone.


Empower me, like a rushing river flowing to the sea
Lord send Your Holy Spirit flowing out through me
Till I'm living as Your child, victorious and free
Send the power of Your love
Empower me

There's only 1 and 1 alone we can rely on. Not our friends, not our shepherd, but God. Cos God will never fail us.

Make My Life A Sacrifice
;9:27 PM

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