I am so tired now. Even V is not helping. Think I might go buy somemore V tomorrow. Been eating junk to stay awake. Too much junk. There was leftover keropok in church today but Ian wouldn't give me a bag!

Well... this weekend, I finished off both my critical learnining incidents. Now I have to work on my log book and all those clinical skills reflections. Arghh.. such a waste of time, especially when there's so much to study. Did some neuro stuff today. I am so bad at it. I like gastro and renal stuff. I don't mind blood and onco. Don't really fancy cardio. Resp reminds me too much about physics.

Church today was ok... Ps John came down from Sydney.

I think I realized something. A lot of times, we feel dissatisfaction with God. But it comes from the fact that we don't realize something. We ourselves aren't worthy at all. A lot of times, we are just so caught up in the negativity around us that we don't look inwardly to see the negativity in us.

St Francis prayed:
Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O, Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

It's just so true.. the world would just be a little better if we understood the heart of God and lived in accordance to His ways.

The prayer reminds me of Shook Fund. The song the choir used to sing. It's been almost 2 yrs. I still can't believe she's gone sometimes. I still remember her conducting the choir, her singing, her smile.

Life is that unpredictable.. which is why I am so adament about living it well with what God has given and blessed me with.

Oh... I suspect my angel reads my blog. Thanks for the M&Ms.. haha.. I shall be thick skinned.. I don't eat plain chocolate... and I like salty junk more than sweet junk.

Make My Life A Sacrifice
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