Ruth went back tonight.. her grandma passed away so she had to go back to Brunei. I think it is just settling in that she'll be gone for the week.

I was just thinking today how things in our lives just pass us by at times. There are things that just come and go. Like when I was back home, during my secondary school and JCs days, singing was such a big part of my life, but now, I hardly sing anymore. I don't even sing in the shower or even in my room. I no longer spend time perfecting my 'art' if you were to call it that. The days of school choir, SYC, Mrs Choo's lessons, choir practises, just singing with friends have really become things of the past. I don't know whether to feel sad that such days are gone. I mean, I have moved on in life, but it's just scary to think that something I was so passionate about in the past is now just a thing of the past.

I mean with people it's sometimes the same. There are some friends you have whom you may have been very close to and then you just drift away. Or there could have been people in your life whom you felt were such a big part of your life who just suddenly fade out because of circumstances. I think of the people I used to call my 'best friends' who I don't even keep in touch with anymore. I think of people like Miss Low & Jen whom I used to be so close to, whom I used to spend hours talking to, seeking advice from whom are just cut off from my life.

I know at the end of it all, I need to cling on to God cos only God will never ever fail me.

But somehow, there is still this lingering sadness and a tinge of fear.

Will I ever reach a point where all I do today becomes a thing of the past. Where the people I love so much today just become memories.

God's love is steadfast, faithful and true. If only everything else in life were like that.

Make My Life A Sacrifice
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