Make My Life A Sacrifice
Anyways, been thinking about the topic of..well as morbid as it sounds.. death....
In this 21 years of my life, I've had some people around me die.. thankfully, all of them were saved... but yet, sometimes, that doesn't take away the pain.
I guess the person whose death affected me the most was Shook Fund's. And Darryl's too. Funny you might say, they weren't even related to me. As in by blood. It wasn't even the first sudden death I experienced. I still remember so clearly the day Ah ma died. How mum came into my room, how we rushed up to Woodlands, how I had to call for a taxi and tell daddy. How we went to Ida's school to pick her up. How mum sounded when she called from the mortuary. The entire funeral.... And for Shook Fund, I still remember the sms daddy sent. The shock, the initial disbelief, the newspaper article, the calls made back home. I remember that exact day, how I first called Mavis cos Ruth was sleeping, then I told Phil over MSN, then Phil took me out for a bit, Ruth's brother was over, then I told Ruth when I came back and left my bubble tea on the kitchen counter.. it was a grape snowshake I remember.. then I hid in my room till core team meeting.... had core team meeting... had to chair care group for the first time that evening... sat in Ruth's room and cried...... followed Ruth to the bakery that night cos I didn't want to be alone.. came home and cried and cried...
The pain of death is hard to explain unless you experience it for yourself. This week we are studying palliative care for PCL. Need to go for that in a bit.
You know..there are still days I expect to go home and see Ah ma there... there are times when I see myself back in Wesley and Shook Fund conducting the choir...
It's so hard to believe at times...
I know there's a time and season for everything.. A time to live and a time to die...
But the pain of death.. only God can deal with it....
;4:41 PM
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About me
Ivy Ong
Child of God
Fina; Year Medical Student
Melbourne, Victoria, Australia