Make My Life A Sacrifice
Went to watch Passion yesterday. Oh man..it is even worse than a horror flick. The cruelty of mankind is unbelievable... Minus the fact that I managed to fall asleep at the beginning of the show..till Swee gave me one good poke in the side..and that I spent the rest of the show covering my face cos I really can't take such stuff..yeah...i can chop up dead bodies and all..but seriously...this is appalling. Throughout the parts of the show that I watched..the one question that came to mind was..."Was I worth it?"..I mean..the pain, the torture, the suffering..and it was definitely more than just the physical pain that Jesus went through....He was sinless...He could have said..No..I won't do this..but He did...out of His love for the people of the world..the very same people who turned against Him and crucified Him.
For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life
~John 3:16
My very first memory verse from so many years ago...but it is God's word and it holds true yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever.
You know..while watching the show..it made me feel..well..my problems are so minute...they are so easy as compared to what Jesus suffered...Yes...I may be unhappy and all..but as compared to the grief Jesus had to bear...well....
But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
~Isaiah 53:5
I think the show was more about seeing what we already knew...and trust me..seeing is a much better way of convicting one's heart than just by hearing it preached to you 24/7.
With all these problems I've been having...well...I think I've come to a conclusion that I will just learn to live with it...bear with it. Seriously, that's the best way out. There is no point in sitting here and moping about it all day cos it's not doing me any good at all. As what Ruth said last week..it's time to look at things from God's perspective....to see why He place me where I am today...to see what He wants me to do...I think it's also time to trust God a little more...that He will see me through whatever circumstance... cos really...sitting here and feeling miserable about my life isn't a very good thing....
Huimin e-mailed me...she said that I shouldn't go round looking for someone to understand me totally..yeah..in a way..that is true...neither do I have to justify whatever I do to the people around me... the accoutability should be most importantly between God and myself. But at the same time....aiz...yes..it would be nice to have someone who could walk with me down the path of medical school and wanting to serve God at the same time. But I reckon that's not of much importance now... cos I can't put my life at a standstill while waiting for a person like that to show up. And to those of you out there..you know who you are...I am NOT NOT NOT looking for a boyfriend. Yeah... I still don't understand why people think you need a man to make your life complete. I so do not need one at this point in my life.
Yeah..so I guess I am a bit happier now. Minus the fact that work is piling up again..then again...when do I ever do work? Cos I mean...there's no point in being miserable. It's time to pick myself up and get back to work....
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight
~Proverbs 3:5-6
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
~Jeremiah 29:11
We're so amazed
And we give you praise
That you save us at such a cost
We're so amazed
And we give you praise
At the power of the cross
;2:12 PM
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About me
Ivy Ong
Child of God
Fina; Year Medical Student
Melbourne, Victoria, Australia