This is getting addictive. Either that or I am having another one of my mel days. Actually, I think I am leh. I still have 40mins to go. Then I can go have dinner with Yvonne since Swee and Ruth are out at a meeting. Go and eat Springvale as she calls it.

I'm supposed to be doing my learning agreement for CPP, but stuff it lah. I am not getting anywhere. i am just copying off the sample copy. Thank goodness I'm with Anglicare.

I just feel so down of late. I don't know why. Well, maybe I do know why. Just that I don't say it.

My thoughts from Sunday afternoon's service....

Yes, people need the Lord. They need Him so so so so much but they just don't realize it. When Chewy started to sing that song, the feeling was overwhelming, for a variety of reasons. Firstly, from who I learnt the song from. Shook Fund. Someone who knew that everyone needed God's love and someone who showed it so selflessly to everyone, someone who always reflected the joy of the Lord. Someone who has been called back home by the Lord. Someone I will never see again in this lifetime.

It made me think. There's no time. We don't know what tomorrow holds. What if something that happened to Shook Fund happens to us as well. Happens to our loved ones who don't know the Lord. It made me think of all the people I know, especially those back home. People who I am so close too yet never ever shared anything with. People I love so much yet do not know Jesus. People like daddy, like Flora, like Huimin and Yvonne. People whom I have shared so much of my earthly life with but who may share life in eternity cos they do not know Jesus. What would happen if something happened. We always only think about such things when it is too late. How many times had I wanted to show my appreciation to Shook Fund for all the nice things she did, the encouragement she gave. How many times did I want to buy her something and send it back. How much did I look forward to seeing her when I went home. Things that will never be for she is no longer here with us. It may be too late for her, but not for the rest of my friends and family. Got to save one more for Jesus...for people need the Lord.

Even with friends around me now, friends who are Christians. How long am I going to wait before I tell them how much I appreciate them for who they are, what they do for me. Or am I going to keep it to myself till it is too late.

I got this off the Fairfield alumni's newsletter, where there was a tribute to Shook Fund.

Jesus bids us to shine,
With a pure clear light,
Like a little candle,
Burning in the night.
In this world of darkness,
So let you shine-
You in your small corner and I in mine.

I know Shook Fund left a light in my heart that will always burn. But now I also have to let God's light in me burn. To never go out. So that I can be that light, little as I may be in the darkness. For even the smallest candle can fill an entire dark room with light.

I miss Shook Fund so much even though it's been more than 3 months since the accident and it's been more than a year since I saw her last. You truly never appreciate a person fully till they are gone.

At the same time Lord, help me to let go. I know wounds take time to heal but come Lord, and heal mine. All the wounds of the past. All the burdens. Lord, take them from me. Let me lay them down at Your feet and take up your burden instead for You have said, Your burden is light.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
~Matthew 11:28-30

Make My Life A Sacrifice
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